Standing Strong in His Grace

I believe God wants to do something in my life if I will just keep holding on and stick with things like going to church and serving where I can. I went to church Sunday...God always speaks to me in a profound way during worship...Yesterday was no exception. He spoke to me and how I have been like Jonah running from what God has plainly called me to do time after time I have ran from this and ran from that my whole life, especially when things have not gone the way that I thought that they should or when things got hard.  It has been sooo easy just to walk out the door! I have walked out many doors in my Christian life and you know what, over half those I should have not walked out of them.   Oh GOD please forgive me for being stubborn and not listening for your voice!!  I should be walking in healing right now, and not running from it!!!   But I am afraid to take that first step. God has healed me from a major debilitating mental illness. I really don't want to stay in this place

I do not know about you but more importantly than anything that is going on in your life right now is that you have a real relationship with GOD. That is what is on my heart this morning. To be honest in real life I can only think of two real relationships with people in my life.  My dad and my best friend Matt who lives in Arizona. But even with my dad I dont tell him things tht I tell my friend and brother in Christ Matthew. I believe that GOD wants us to have that kind of relationship with Him as well. I am humbling myself before you to admit I haven't had good relationships in my past.  I have two failed marriages and my dad and I's relationship has a 15-year gap that was lost because of his divorce with he and my mom. I think we tend to take our family members for granted and do not take the time to work on relationships. I as well have two failed marriages that I walked away from. I regret the first one most of all. When i walked away from her I walked away from my childr

I will enter his gates this year. It is the end of the year and I have so much to be thankful for. I am in a good place right now. No other time for me to express gratitude for what Jesus has done in my life...for you Jesus having a hand of grace upon my mental health and granting peace that passes understanding to my troubled soul. You have truly done a great work and I am humbled by Your glory. You deserve my thanksgiving and my praise for what you have done in my heart and life.  There is so much I could say here to Jesus, but I want to take the time to encourage you to express prayers of gratitude to the King of all kings!!!   This year especially.  Maybe you are alone this holiday season. I want to reach out to those in isolation right now. God knows and sees you and desires you to come out of your cave...I  don't  know about you, but I get very depressed and distressed when I close myself off from the world, especially from the body of Christ.  We need you to come to church,

I have given you the heart of a fighter. Do not stop fighting the fight every day. I hope this encourages some people not to give up. Do not let the enemy push you around, when you fall get right back up. The enemy of our soul is the devil.  He loves it when you walk in self-pity feeling sorry for yourself...Rise up and fight for your life because brothers and sisters every day is a fight!!   I pray that the Spirit of Christ rises up in you.  The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak!! When we walk in the flesh we are walking in our sinful nature and that corrupts our souls.  We must crucify the flesh by walking in the Spirit.  Walking in selfishness is not carrying your cross!! Look to Jesus and see how he fought for us tooth and nail. Allow Jesus to fight through you. Be filled with Jesus, He life is our armor, He is alive and in active duty. So are we as believers!! When you give in and give up you stop fighting, you  have to be on guard every second. Do not give the devil an inc

I do not know how many of you know my story. I wrote a book and published it in 2018. I have since then wanted to write a revision of that book. Some people read the book and I do not really think they understand, but people who have been where I walked are blessed by it.   In 2002 I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia.  I heard internal and audible voices plus paranoia and hallucinations. I had two mental breakdowns before I was diagnosed and several hospital stays.  The reality of being diagnosed in 2002 was a lucid revelation indeed. I even had to get on disability back in the day. But God has done an awesome work since that time. My symptoms have drastically changed. Now, I no longer hear voices plus no more paranoid hallucinations.  Praise God!!  I have a clear mind now!  Before it was all cluttered with racing thoughts. I believe in God's healing hand.  I want to be careful here when I say that the medicine, I was on, was like a band aid for my wounded mind. But it was

  I tell you what...God is moving on this earth through the body of Christ! Sunday was a great day. I went to church after over a month. I urge you to read my last post. I tend to withdraw and isolate from everything. I get very depressed during this time. In 2021 I had to go inpatient it was so severe.  I am better but still go through times of depression, and this late isolation was very dark and depressing. But something happened last week that woke me up. It was the Holy Spirit.  I Know that now. But, listen to this... I went to church Sunday morning. Before the Worship and Praise got going, I believe the Holy Spirit told me that I came in when my grave clothes on. Remember the story in the Bible about Lazarus?  Jesus raised Lazarus from the dead!! Out comes Lazarus in what? His graveclothes!! Praise GOD!! You see Jesus called me out of that isolation...I firmly believe that!!! I will talk about graveclothes in another post. I've got to pray about what exactly they are...Then I

The title says it all. I go through seasons of pulling away from the Lord.  When I pull away, I pull back from everything...Praying, reading and studying, my devotions, church, work, I withdraw and drop everything. I do not know why I do it. I think the old saying is true, "If you give the devil an inch, he takes a foot." Literally you cannot give any place to satan in your heart and even life.  Tonight, for some reason I feel the Presence of the Holy Spirit wooing me so strongly that I drop everything. I stop searching for something I can never find without God leading me.  My mind is so clear right now at 2:45 am Friday morning, and I feel inspired to write this posting. In the past I have pulled away from relationships and put up permanent walls. I regret that. All I can think right now is that divorce is in my family generational line.  Maybe that is where this all is rooted.  I apologize for anyone I have pulled away from. Relationships take work, they are not all the ti